The reason I decided to start this blog is, let's face it, for me and not necessarily for the good of mankind. So, if anyone reads it and finds it helpful, then all the better. If not, then at least I have found an outlet for my thoughts around what I am going through at the moment.
And what is that ? I (pretend to) hear you ask.
For five long years, my husband and I have been struggling to start a family. We have gone through all kinds of test, treatment and nothing has worked.
And this week, I've found myself asking "What now?". Should I accept that we might never naturally conceive? Should I keep the faith, as everyone keeps advising? Should I start to think about living my life as though it will never happen? I cannot even envisage a life without children, but this past few years, I have been living my life with the sole aim of getting pregnant. This means that I have put off committing to many things, as the treatments may have interfered, or I might not have been able to follow through, had I gotten pregnant.
And here I find myself today. What changes should I make to my life, to ensure that I am making the most of now, knowing that I cannot rely on having my own children?
To be continued...
